How does one develop courage?
I’m not talking about courage in the way that you declare you’ll die for those you love on the top of a mountain whilst facing a hoard of enemies, although this too is courage.
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I'd get intimidated by confident people
My whole life I’ve been a passive and submissive person. Asserting who I am was never an option. I thought it was just being polite to let other people take up space, but I’ve come to realise there’s
Distracted Mind
Note: This blog was written Dec 18 and I've since done a lot of personal work so I'm a little further down the path now.
I lied about being allergic to dogs
As a kid I was always into cats. We had strays turn up to our house all the time and we’d feed them our leftovers. Naturally they’d end up staying. Every now and then we’d hear meowing coming from the
I’m Scared of Voicing My Opinions
As I mentioned in the ‘Going to shops would give me crippling anxiety’ blog post, I’ve struggled and felt uncomfortable taking up space. One way this has manifested itself in my life has been being af
How I Cope with Boredom
I’ve been consuming a bunch of Alex Hormozi’s content lately and in one of his appearances on The Iced Coffee Hour one of the host’s, ironically named Alex as well, was talking about being overweight.
This Growth Shit is Frickin Hard!
Multiple times this year I’ve felt like things couldn’t get worse and they would. Multiple times this year I’ve felt things go amazingly and I have my life figured out and finally on track, then time
Being Invisible was how I Dealt with Tension in my Life
I subconsciously learnt as a child that when my parents got angry, I felt I had to become invisible and put my feelings and emotions on hold until they felt better. After sessions with my trauma coach
My Passion for Moko is Back
In 2017 I made the decision that I would tattoo/moko for one more year and end in Spring of 2018. I had gotten to a point where moko felt like a job, and I never looked forward to it. I would sleep un
I’m Switching Comments Back On
The last few weeks of internal growth without comments on my socials has been a reflective time for me. Initially I thought it would last longer, and my addiction to praise was so strong that it wasn’
Being Bad at Business Hurt My Potential as an Artist
I had a conversation today around the connection, or disconnection, between creating art and selling it. For the longest time I struggled with valuing my work (I still struggle a bit these days) and o
I Came Close to Cheating on My Partner
There was a point in my relationship when we very much felt like flat mates, and I was far too emotionally immature to have meaningful conversations around how I felt. I didn’t know how to talk, and I
I Cheated to get my NCEA Level 2 Reading Credits
Growing up I never enjoyed reading (I still don’t read now, unless I schedule it) and I would go so far as to say I hated it. I would read and get bored because what I was reading wouldn’t stick or it
What Does it Mean to Be Humble?
Growing up as a Tūhoe, one of the most important values that was instilled in me was that no matter how well I did, I was always to remain humble. I thought I knew what that meant as a kid, but as I g
My Ego Can Get Away from Me Sometimes
Every time I get into a groove and I start feeling myself, I find myself saying things and giving advice out that only works when you’re feeling good, unless you’re a disciplined person, and I always
Life isn’t a Movie
I’ve been taught multiple lessons this year that have rocked me to my core and one clear realisation I’ve come to learn is that life is not a movie.
Going to Shops Would Give Me Crippling Anxiety
I didn’t realise I was an anxious person until a few years ago (I’m not sure if I have anxiety, hence the reason I say I’m an anxious person instead) and it made no sense to me.
A Box of Scraps
Impossible it seems, the light will shine
I Don’t Know How to Cry
When I was a kid, I was super sensitive and would cry at the smallest things (objectively small, subjectively huge to me). I remember crying as an 11-year-old because I fell over trying to sit down on
I Don’t Like Making Things Awkward
Note: I’ve changed so much recently that in this blog post, I might as well be talking about someone else, because I am no longer the person I speak about.